Tomorrow my little surro man will be 8 months old. I've been really thinking about him the last few days. I ponder on how big he must be. I wonder what he is up to, if he is crawling to their Christmas tree tearing all the ornaments off and they keep telling no. I wonder when he smiles at them does he have two or more cute teeth that shine at them. Does he laugh so hard that their heart melt every time.
I know he is great hands. I know his family LOVES him so much. I KNOW they adore him. I am sad that I don't get to witness this but I know I am supposed to sacrifice for this little guy and I will continue to sacrifice. I love that little boy and his family. My mom is always telling me "nobody can never take that you carried him" Wise words mommy, Thank you!
Happy 8 months little guy!
Friday, November 30, 2012
Tuesday, November 27, 2012
Are we exclusive?
I often hear about how Surrogacy feels like you're dating and it totally has very similar feelings.
When people ask me about my last journey I always tell them that they broke up with me. I wish we could be friends but unfortunately when you have broken up being friends never works out, right? When I think about what I would do if I ran into them somewhere. I think I hope I look good, I hope they see I am doing well, and I hope it they will feel bad or miss me. It will be a very awkward conversation. I sometimes refer it to it almost feels as scary as run if I hurt their child not brought him into the world. Its crazy to feel this way about it.
When You go on your first date. Its a blind date or you may know a little bit about them because of each others profiles online or thru an agency. Just this last week I went on my second journeys first date. That day I called my friends up and asked them to go shopping for a cute outfit. I had to look cute and very baby carrying approved. While we were at dinner my Intended mom mentioned how she feels like were dating and she also had to look cute. Of course our men thought we were nuts. The only difference from normal dating you hope they ask you if they can knock you up on the first date and how many they want to knock you up with. You do get very personal for a first meeting.
Since last week I get all excited when I see that she has text or called. I may even do a little hop skip and a jump! Then when were done talking the anxiety hits. Did I say the right thing, do they still like me, will she text back, maybe I should give them space, wait a couple days before I call or text, I may be coming on to strong, uh it so confusing and exciting!
When people ask me about my last journey I always tell them that they broke up with me. I wish we could be friends but unfortunately when you have broken up being friends never works out, right? When I think about what I would do if I ran into them somewhere. I think I hope I look good, I hope they see I am doing well, and I hope it they will feel bad or miss me. It will be a very awkward conversation. I sometimes refer it to it almost feels as scary as run if I hurt their child not brought him into the world. Its crazy to feel this way about it.
When You go on your first date. Its a blind date or you may know a little bit about them because of each others profiles online or thru an agency. Just this last week I went on my second journeys first date. That day I called my friends up and asked them to go shopping for a cute outfit. I had to look cute and very baby carrying approved. While we were at dinner my Intended mom mentioned how she feels like were dating and she also had to look cute. Of course our men thought we were nuts. The only difference from normal dating you hope they ask you if they can knock you up on the first date and how many they want to knock you up with. You do get very personal for a first meeting.
Since last week I get all excited when I see that she has text or called. I may even do a little hop skip and a jump! Then when were done talking the anxiety hits. Did I say the right thing, do they still like me, will she text back, maybe I should give them space, wait a couple days before I call or text, I may be coming on to strong, uh it so confusing and exciting!
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