Me as a Gestational Carrier!!

** A moment in my Tummy, forever in my heart**

Thank you for visiting my blog! I'm not the best writer so bare with me as I try to tell about my experience :) I am a mom of 4 ranging from ages 13-3. About 12 years ago I decided that one day I would help a family bring a child into this world. In 2011 I met my first Intended family and delivered a baby boy on Aprils fools Day 2012. I now am matched with my second family and I look forward to what this journey brings to us.

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

I Lost a part of me today..

My husband has been so excited for this day, NOT! You know the day he has to keep his hands to himself for a while. I am no longer protected, I no longer have an IUD in to make sure we don't make our own babies.  This day though is great for me I no longer have to use the excuse that I have a head ache or pretend to be asleep. I wish you could see my perma grin. lol

Today when my Intended mom showed up to the doctors office she had this cute care package.  I had told her a week ago that there is a little bit of cramping when it is removed. I love that she thought of me and my needs for today. I will defiantly enjoy these products and I will do my best to not confuse or mix up what each of their purpose is. ((wink wink)) 

Friday, January 18, 2013

Gratefully matched

I had mentioned before about dating, so this is not really a surprise that "I'm Matched" but I wanted to tell my story.

Back in November I was talking to a family that lived in another state. I fell in love with this mom but unfortunately it fell through because of my issue with the medications in my last journey.  We have kept in touch and I am so happy to hear that they were able to find another amazing surro and things are going great.

In the meantime the lawyer that had introduced me to my last Intended parents had mentioned that he had a family looking and he thought I would be perfect for them. At the time I was so nervous about a local couple but also looking forward to another local couple.

We had met and ended up talking for four hours. You could tell that they truly were curious about me and not just my uterus. The dad was not feeling well but he held it together very well.  The next day I called them and said "I am really sorry and I feel horrible but you are stuck with me a really long time" I confused her but then she yelled " We have a baby mamma!"

Since then I am so amazed with how my life has changed.  About 6 months ago I was feeling that maybe I was not allowed to have a journey that I had in my head but now I know I can. I have found so much healing and forgiveness in my past because this family has stepped in my life. I truly feel that we will be close no matter our future and they are a true blessing in my life.

On Christmas day they came over and my Intended mom brought me the sweetest gift. When I opened it she said "This is because you're my angel".  

Well I hope I can always be an Angel in their eyes and I will work my hardest to be an amazing carrier for their little sweet pea. I keep thinking this week that what will I be saying a year from now. I just hope I will be saying that they have a baby in their arms and I have been able to be apart of their dream.

Wednesday, January 9, 2013

My Dearest Jenny

I hear stories all the time about infertility. It so breaks my heart.  I don't understand what so ever what others go through. I wonder why I am so fertile while others work so hard. I almost feel guilty that I would freak out when we were trying and I would get a negative test but then with in a couple days I would get a positive. I know way stupid but I truly cant imagine these families that take this test every month with hope but know it will be negative or if its positive you most likely wont make it to 10 weeks. I tear up thinking about their tears each month.
Such a bad picture of me but look cute Jenny and my Lu Lu a week old

I really feel my ability to have children have brought me to this place were I can help others but it also breaks my heart that I cant help everyone.  One person I would give anything to be able to help is my bestest friend Jenny!! She doesn't need my uterus though, she needs my tubes. If there was fallopian tube transplant she would have them.  Although with the price of the surgery  she could do IVF.

Last night I told my husband that I want to help them with my new surrogacy journey to help get them to their dream. He looked at me and said "NO" I think the only no he has ever said to me. Then he says "I know your donation number is much higher than what I'm thinking" I AGREE with his argument!! Now I just need to get him on my side ;) If your making wishes, wish that her baby dreams come true! My Jenny is one of the most loving people I know and she would give anything. She truly deserves this!!!  Please send her your support, love and Compassion. Love you Jenny Jen Jen!!!